Hemi – Sync

I talk to you

A lot in

my head

Yet I know

I shouldn’t

Pick up my phone

.

If I get brave enough to

Look at your name

I shut myself down

I can’t have a moment

Like that again

You don’t need

me to crack

Your skull open

And show you

The truth of

What you’ve

been hiding in

.

.

Start your day

With a clean slate

“Helps make every day feel brand new”

.

.

Flip a token

To see what side

Of yourself

You’ll choose today

Don’t look in the mirror

It’s easier that way

.

.

I talk to you a lot

In my head

Something I

Don’t recommend

Admitting right now

.

.

It comes natural

Until you want to

Talk about something

I don’t

It comes natural

Till you pull the wrong

String ; I won’t

I can’t sing

Can’t write

My throat is raw

From yelling at myself

I don’t want to visit

This side of my head

.

.

If I asked you to

Close your eyes

And touch the

Part of your brain

That lights up

When I come to mind

I bet it would

Scare you everytime

Not just one location

I come to find

.

.

I hope you know

I don’t feel like

Picking up my phone

My chest feels constricted

Can’t breath the way I like to

Right now thinking of you

Just a subtle heartbeat

Can’t get through the thick fog

Around you ; the pollution

Is too loud

.

.

I see vices

False niceness

Comfort zone

Sacrifices

Happy ….

Happy life

.

.

Being human is weird

I’m sure being a man is worse

All this pressure on your shoulders

To be a provider , believe that a better

Version of yourself is built by

Sacrificing who you are to someone else

.

Dark night of the soul

Is the only way through

I promise your authentic self

Wont let you ignore this pull

If this was the end then your

Pearl Jam song would be playing loud

I don’t hear the bells ringing or

The End coming for you

But I can assure you it

Wont be me snapping my fingers

Bringing you back on cue

But I see you

Don’t worry friend

I couldn’t stop if I tried

.

You come to mine

Too many times

.

.

Comedically I picture

Your name entering

The left side of my brain

Deciphering where it should

store this lovely being

The security is weak on that side

The bouncer said your name is on the list

Every-time

I’m dancing on the right side

Spinning in circles , dancing

Pantomime

.

.

.

Drifting through Oklahoma

2/8/21

9:29 am

9:44 am

10:01 am

Where you focus———————There the energy goes

So where are you

In that head of yours

I see myself slouching down

Going deaf

Don’t want to hear your sound

Anymore

I’m going down

Just at the sight of you

I’m going down

Don’t want to be around you

My energy has been focused

On all the wrong things

Taking away from me

I get angry

Annoyed

Want to tell you to go

Just go

Where you focus

There the energy goes—

I need to go

I am looking out

There is my energy flow

Looking up

There is my frequency show

Ungrounded

Need to center

Myself

Go

Clean my glasses

Blink my eyes

A few hundred times

.

.

Tap between my brow

Where you focus

There the energy goes —-

.

.

.

3:25 PM

Flying over

the Midwest

Look Up

Sometimes I sit

Up on a mountain

Top with you

High above the clouds

I laugh and stare at

The human in you

Make fun of the earthly

Things we do

Play pretend this

Isn’t happening again

Down there I’m far away

From myself right now

These weeks are kicking

My souls ass

Silencing the voice in

The back of my head

To finish out the karmic

Progression I’ve been

Laying with…

Forgetting what I promised

Myself

.

.

I find myself on my mat again

Staring at the ceiling

Pretending I’m in

the stars again

I love this life

But sometimes I’m

too much

I struggle to stay

In line just over

Here doing my time

Trying to be kind

This is a struggle to survive

Survive mundane

Survive consistency

Can’t run even if

The music called me

.

.

I sit up in the clouds

And stare out with you

Look at this mess

We are going through

It’s not really that bad

Not enough time

For the things I crave

But just enough time

To end business day

Everytime I leave

I want to stay away and play

I miss my things

Don’t have the time

Today to appreciate

Just stare like a museum

I swear I’ll visit again

.

.

Today I’m on a mountain

Top with you

Today I’m nurturing

My soul

And you

She’s on the mountain

resting in your lap

Wind breezes by

Can’t stay here forever

But it’s nice to see your face

Can’t stay here forever

Let me enjoy this place

.

.

Earth is crazy right now

This is my safe place

.

.

Earth is busy right now

I came here to calm down

Save my space

.

I’m going with the flow

Let go

Let go

Let go

.

.

.

Kiss my forehead

I have to go

.

.

10:31AM

10:26 AM

9/29/20

Blog at WordPress.com.

Up ↑