123456 — 654321

If I saw a loss

Is the loss pouring

out of you ?

Hands shaking

People who once loved

Are now just fighting and taking

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Maybe it’s best to not know this you

You’ve worked so hard

But does it mean what you’ve

Worked for was the greener pasture

You were supposed to water all along ?

Any “lessons learned”coming along?

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How long do you stand on the wrong lawn?

How long until you just let go

And realize you are just

Digging in the wrong direction

How many seeds lay waste ?

Over watered —

Never develop taste

You keep going deeper

Into all the wrong places

You keep going deeper

Like this is where you can hide

All your faces

Hide you can

But you know this isn’t right

All your trinkets being taken from you?

Finding out that marital bliss

Just means half of all MY shit ?

Bring nothing to the table

Then leaving with my passions ?

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I believe divorce is a trauma

Most people feel embarrassed

Like a failure

Broken

Emotionally

Financially

Family

It’s all pieces on the floor

A part of this life we wish

We could let go

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I see so many different things

Most importantly

I see no need for a ring

123456

Time and battery charge

Falling in line as I

Write down these visions

My mind is acting out for me

I’m sitting her at work &

The sight doesn’t leave me be

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If this isn’t you then I

Hope you find your own cue

I can’t see anyone’s faces

Just recognize the energy

Feels recycled —-tainted —

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Break it down

My iambic fuse

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Sirens blaring

Find a muse

Kingdom taring

Sing the blues

Back away

I have nothing to lose

An afterthought

I’m so confused

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Start writing

Burn the book

Stare too long

Or take a second look

I see you mad hatter

I dare you

Let this shatter

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Find yourself

No one else matters

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I pray for you

Whoever you are

I send you light

You are never that far

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12:45 PM

4-5-21

Theta – QHHT

I’ve got something

Coming to me

Rather I am coming

To face me

I’m swimming in

My brainwaves

I feel like a deftones song

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The beat of cherry waves

Is how I’m swimming

In my brain ; flowing

Effortlessly to my true state

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Which one gives me

Access to the

answers I hear

I’ve known all along

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Delta

Theta

Alpha

Beta

Is gamma the way ?

I could sit here allday

Swaying in a hemi sync daze

Mudra

Mudra

Send it out in every way

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I’m swimming these

Pathways back to me

Looking for the one

To give me access to me

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Memories I float by

Emotions I observe

From times long

Gone bye

Sensations

Sold out prayers

Heart felt

Deep meditations

My lonely tears

They are all here

I’m swimming in my mind

This is mine

All mine

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Drifting slowly

In a trance like state

Drifting flowing

This is apart of my fate

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I can’t stop searching for you

I’m going deeper

Goodbye Beta

Can’t stop seeing you

You are a big part

Of the truth

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Breath quietly

With pranayama

& imaginations

Of green & blue

Om

That throat chakra

Is coming for you

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6:22 PM

March 27th 2021

Hemi – Sync

I talk to you

A lot in

my head

Yet I know

I shouldn’t

Pick up my phone

.

If I get brave enough to

Look at your name

I shut myself down

I can’t have a moment

Like that again

You don’t need

me to crack

Your skull open

And show you

The truth of

What you’ve

been hiding in

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Start your day

With a clean slate

“Helps make every day feel brand new”

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Flip a token

To see what side

Of yourself

You’ll choose today

Don’t look in the mirror

It’s easier that way

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I talk to you a lot

In my head

Something I

Don’t recommend

Admitting right now

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It comes natural

Until you want to

Talk about something

I don’t

It comes natural

Till you pull the wrong

String ; I won’t

I can’t sing

Can’t write

My throat is raw

From yelling at myself

I don’t want to visit

This side of my head

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If I asked you to

Close your eyes

And touch the

Part of your brain

That lights up

When I come to mind

I bet it would

Scare you everytime

Not just one location

I come to find

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I hope you know

I don’t feel like

Picking up my phone

My chest feels constricted

Can’t breath the way I like to

Right now thinking of you

Just a subtle heartbeat

Can’t get through the thick fog

Around you ; the pollution

Is too loud

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I see vices

False niceness

Comfort zone

Sacrifices

Happy ….

Happy life

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Being human is weird

I’m sure being a man is worse

All this pressure on your shoulders

To be a provider , believe that a better

Version of yourself is built by

Sacrificing who you are to someone else

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Dark night of the soul

Is the only way through

I promise your authentic self

Wont let you ignore this pull

If this was the end then your

Pearl Jam song would be playing loud

I don’t hear the bells ringing or

The End coming for you

But I can assure you it

Wont be me snapping my fingers

Bringing you back on cue

But I see you

Don’t worry friend

I couldn’t stop if I tried

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You come to mine

Too many times

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Comedically I picture

Your name entering

The left side of my brain

Deciphering where it should

store this lovely being

The security is weak on that side

The bouncer said your name is on the list

Every-time

I’m dancing on the right side

Spinning in circles , dancing

Pantomime

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Drifting through Oklahoma

2/8/21

9:29 am

9:44 am

10:01 am

Dark Whispers —— I Won’t Follow

The whispers

Are coming again

Coming from a distance

I know they want to

Seep in

I’m stuck on a problem

My wheels spinning

On just one thing

That could take

My soul within

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They are coming

They approach

From the ground

Powerful they seem

With no camouflage

I gleam

Here I sit

I start to sing

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I know you are

Coming for me

I can see it in

My minds dreams

I know you

Are coming for me

Whispering screams

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Lead me astray

Follow a path

Hell bent

On decay

Dead butterflies

Lead the way

.

Together they’ve

Come to face me

Upfront

I tap my head

To disperse them

Even though I am

The hunt

I forget to tell you

I’m stronger than

You think

I forget to tell you

I will not live like

This again

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“You are not worthy

Of love

Not worthy of light

Come sit in the

Darkness

We are your delight

You cannot fight us

The darkness will

Always fight

We will come and find

You right when you

Feel the light

You’ll be halfway up

A wall & we will

crash it down

You’ll fall

We are the truth

The darkness

Coming after you”

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I am not enough

I do not deserve love

That is what they tell me

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These Whispers used to

Soothe me now

They’ve turned

Against me

Coming to test me

I cannot fear

What is inside

Of me

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I’d rather eat them

When they taunt me

Transmute & even flow

.

A monarch butterfly

I must grow

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You don’t know

Me anymore darkness

I’ve had to let you go

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6:58 AM

6: 31 PM

7:02 PM

“Read My Mind”

Woke up

&

I remember

I saw you

I lay there

& wonder

What you were

Telling me to do

.

.

Come close

Too close

Smiles show

Embrace me

Far past regret

I saw that

demented smile

Again

.

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Blinking in a dream

another time approaches

Shows me old houses

Old rooms

Hair long

Like old times

Forgot my life

When I came to

Who is this man

My dream tells me

To look into

I watch myself

Follow this path

I play rewind

There you are

In dreamscape land

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Blink

Present time

Present house

This is mine

I see you laying

On the floor

Crawl between

Now heavens a blur

My head is spinning

The feeling still there

Close my eyes

You continue to stare

Reality is coming quick

Tell me what you

Want me to know

I know I’m

laying too

Close to you

Tell me before I go

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You lean in

As close as I want you to

Wrapped around me

Eyes meet

I’m so alive

Look what you

Made me do

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Your lips move

“Read my mind”

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Dream chy

Closes her eyes

In your arms

alarm sounds

I disappear everytime.

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3:19 PM

3:37 PM

1/13/2021

Through the breath ——- comes the energy

Im looking for you

Plugging my ears

To hear where you are

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Closing my eyes

To see you so far

Inhale

Listen close

Exhale

I feel like a ghost

I need to sit down

Find the energy again

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Have you left

The enemy yet?

Haven’t craved yourself

Enough yet?

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I need a place for my head

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Don’t want you to

Take the best of me

Loneliness has

This tongue again

Slithering

Slithering

Constriction begins

I guess that’s what

Happens when

Your conflicted again

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Finding myself

Gets harder

Everytime

I’m getting better

At hiding

Can’t be up in

The clouds the whole time

I’ve got a life to live

Can’t always confide

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I’m searching for you

Cheyenne’s missing

Peek-A-Boo

Hidden away from

The blue

Words won’t

Come out

Too easy to

Misconstrue

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Just better to

Put my head

Down , push

On through

Shit

What did I do?

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Through the breath

Comes the energy

Again

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Through the breath

Comes the energy

My friend.

12/8/20

8:41PM

A Yearn Untamed

I struggle to

Stay connected

To a part of

Myself

The part of myself

I love the most

I’m a ghost

Your a ghost

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Boo

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I yearn to confide

Inside myself

Be alone &

Fix this

Ocean of

Loneliness

I swim in

I’m terrified of

Water but here I

Am flowing with

The rip tide

Scared I

Might die

It’s getting deeper

Flowing faster

If I fight the current

I’ll drown

I’ve already done

This before

I have to crash

With the waves

Here I go

If this were

Easy it would

Be no fun

No lesson to

Learn

Go back to

The comfort zone

Lay there &

Remember

This isn’t where

You want to be

A coward you

Chose the lion

Suit again

I am OZ

I told you

It’s in you

All along

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Lonely

Lonely

I continuously

Defend

Go back

Go back

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A yearn untamed

Makes me

Disassociate

I’m in love

With you

I’m in love

With this

Vision

I’m closing

My eyes &

Living in

I told you

To go

You stay

As above

So Below

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11:14 AM

11/04/2020

Channeling with Strangers

Spoke with a psychic

Lastnight

She reached out to me

Told me spirit wouldn’t

Let her be

Told me you

Are all around me

If I could see this energy

What would the colours be?

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Spoke with a psychic

Lastnight

She told me everything

Wasn’t alright

Hot and cold

This game gets old

Part of the story

I continue to be told

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Meaningless

&

Unfulfilled

Comes from

Her lips

Low vibes

No light

Tell me who

It is you miss?

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I understand

Life is busy

Can’t find a level stance

Unbalanced

Ungrounded

Need solitude

Need your rest

.

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I spoke to a psychic

Lastnight

She promised

Everything would be

Alright

Asked if I knew

My crown was tilted

Not firing right

I told her I can’t

Feel my heartbeat

I miss it

I can’t feel

My guard is up

I’m inside myself again

Can’t comprehend

What my world is doing

I want to feel my heart beat

Against my chest again

I never want that feeling

To go away

I need to feel myself again

I’m so far away from her

I’m trying to come back

I’m trying to connect

Keep getting lost

With people who

Are just foes

I see right through this

Karmic mess

Here I am

Documenting

What I won’t confess

Here I go

Back to the wrong show

There are no musicians here

No art to compare

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Here I am

Stardust in a suit

Staring at my hands

She said I have a

Long life to live

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All I can do is exhale

All I can do is call out

Life guide

Life line

Help me purify

This divide

Help me find balance

Inside of me

Head in the clouds

Hands searching for

The right mudra

Heart space come back to me

Heart beat come face me

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11:35 AM

10/16/2020

Where you focus———————There the energy goes

So where are you

In that head of yours

I see myself slouching down

Going deaf

Don’t want to hear your sound

Anymore

I’m going down

Just at the sight of you

I’m going down

Don’t want to be around you

My energy has been focused

On all the wrong things

Taking away from me

I get angry

Annoyed

Want to tell you to go

Just go

Where you focus

There the energy goes—

I need to go

I am looking out

There is my energy flow

Looking up

There is my frequency show

Ungrounded

Need to center

Myself

Go

Clean my glasses

Blink my eyes

A few hundred times

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Tap between my brow

Where you focus

There the energy goes —-

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3:25 PM

Flying over

the Midwest

Nothing & Everything

Of all the versions

Of you I know

Why are you so scared

To show me this one?

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Of all the You’s

I’ve met

Why is it so hard

To confess this one?

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I’m the one that

Remembers everything

Yet I’m the one

Who is kindest

To your evolution

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Didn’t even kick

You when you

Needed it

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Who is this man

Who I talk to?

Do you know

Who is you?

Is this what is

Stopping you

From joining

Ebb and flow ?

.

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You don’t know

Yourself?

Lonely

You confess

.

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Dive deeper

My favorite mess

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I see you looking

Inside yourself

.

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Keep going

Keep growing

When your mind

Settles down

Come show me

.

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Flow with me

Show me songs

I’m dying to see

Take me to

Places that are

Meant to be

.

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One day we will

Laugh at this age

We thought was a tease

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Laugh at the way

We treated the breeze.

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Time goes by

.

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I remember everything

.

I’m still here rooting

For you

I remember every song

Don’t make me wait

Too long

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I remember everything

I’m gonna sing you a song

Please start remembering

Everything

I won’t be around too long

1:01 AM

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