123456 — 654321

If I saw a loss

Is the loss pouring

out of you ?

Hands shaking

People who once loved

Are now just fighting and taking

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Maybe it’s best to not know this you

You’ve worked so hard

But does it mean what you’ve

Worked for was the greener pasture

You were supposed to water all along ?

Any “lessons learned”coming along?

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How long do you stand on the wrong lawn?

How long until you just let go

And realize you are just

Digging in the wrong direction

How many seeds lay waste ?

Over watered —

Never develop taste

You keep going deeper

Into all the wrong places

You keep going deeper

Like this is where you can hide

All your faces

Hide you can

But you know this isn’t right

All your trinkets being taken from you?

Finding out that marital bliss

Just means half of all MY shit ?

Bring nothing to the table

Then leaving with my passions ?

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I believe divorce is a trauma

Most people feel embarrassed

Like a failure

Broken

Emotionally

Financially

Family

It’s all pieces on the floor

A part of this life we wish

We could let go

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I see so many different things

Most importantly

I see no need for a ring

123456

Time and battery charge

Falling in line as I

Write down these visions

My mind is acting out for me

I’m sitting her at work &

The sight doesn’t leave me be

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If this isn’t you then I

Hope you find your own cue

I can’t see anyone’s faces

Just recognize the energy

Feels recycled —-tainted —

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Break it down

My iambic fuse

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Sirens blaring

Find a muse

Kingdom taring

Sing the blues

Back away

I have nothing to lose

An afterthought

I’m so confused

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Start writing

Burn the book

Stare too long

Or take a second look

I see you mad hatter

I dare you

Let this shatter

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Find yourself

No one else matters

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I pray for you

Whoever you are

I send you light

You are never that far

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12:45 PM

4-5-21

Hemi – Sync

I talk to you

A lot in

my head

Yet I know

I shouldn’t

Pick up my phone

.

If I get brave enough to

Look at your name

I shut myself down

I can’t have a moment

Like that again

You don’t need

me to crack

Your skull open

And show you

The truth of

What you’ve

been hiding in

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Start your day

With a clean slate

“Helps make every day feel brand new”

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Flip a token

To see what side

Of yourself

You’ll choose today

Don’t look in the mirror

It’s easier that way

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I talk to you a lot

In my head

Something I

Don’t recommend

Admitting right now

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It comes natural

Until you want to

Talk about something

I don’t

It comes natural

Till you pull the wrong

String ; I won’t

I can’t sing

Can’t write

My throat is raw

From yelling at myself

I don’t want to visit

This side of my head

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If I asked you to

Close your eyes

And touch the

Part of your brain

That lights up

When I come to mind

I bet it would

Scare you everytime

Not just one location

I come to find

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I hope you know

I don’t feel like

Picking up my phone

My chest feels constricted

Can’t breath the way I like to

Right now thinking of you

Just a subtle heartbeat

Can’t get through the thick fog

Around you ; the pollution

Is too loud

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I see vices

False niceness

Comfort zone

Sacrifices

Happy ….

Happy life

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Being human is weird

I’m sure being a man is worse

All this pressure on your shoulders

To be a provider , believe that a better

Version of yourself is built by

Sacrificing who you are to someone else

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Dark night of the soul

Is the only way through

I promise your authentic self

Wont let you ignore this pull

If this was the end then your

Pearl Jam song would be playing loud

I don’t hear the bells ringing or

The End coming for you

But I can assure you it

Wont be me snapping my fingers

Bringing you back on cue

But I see you

Don’t worry friend

I couldn’t stop if I tried

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You come to mine

Too many times

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Comedically I picture

Your name entering

The left side of my brain

Deciphering where it should

store this lovely being

The security is weak on that side

The bouncer said your name is on the list

Every-time

I’m dancing on the right side

Spinning in circles , dancing

Pantomime

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Drifting through Oklahoma

2/8/21

9:29 am

9:44 am

10:01 am

A Yearn Untamed

I struggle to

Stay connected

To a part of

Myself

The part of myself

I love the most

I’m a ghost

Your a ghost

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Boo

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I yearn to confide

Inside myself

Be alone &

Fix this

Ocean of

Loneliness

I swim in

I’m terrified of

Water but here I

Am flowing with

The rip tide

Scared I

Might die

It’s getting deeper

Flowing faster

If I fight the current

I’ll drown

I’ve already done

This before

I have to crash

With the waves

Here I go

If this were

Easy it would

Be no fun

No lesson to

Learn

Go back to

The comfort zone

Lay there &

Remember

This isn’t where

You want to be

A coward you

Chose the lion

Suit again

I am OZ

I told you

It’s in you

All along

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Lonely

Lonely

I continuously

Defend

Go back

Go back

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A yearn untamed

Makes me

Disassociate

I’m in love

With you

I’m in love

With this

Vision

I’m closing

My eyes &

Living in

I told you

To go

You stay

As above

So Below

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11:14 AM

11/04/2020

Going Home

I freed myself today

Chose myself

Like I needed to

Didn’t give notice

To the two faced fool

spreading bitterness

Wonder where everyone goes

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I freed myself today

I believe the universe

Shines down a golden ray

I took care of myself

I’ll be taken care of everyday

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Remember this feeling everyday

Listening to my body

I tried but it could never feel right

Too much bitterness

No one can stand the presence

Too much disrespect

Never want to see you again

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It’s empowering to help yourself

Even if it’s cold out I won’t stay

Where I know I can’t grow

Even if it’s cold out

I’ll face this world alone

Me myself & I

The universe by my side

Divine continue to shine

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I freed myself today

I’m going home to

My family

The corn fields

Country roads

Bonfires &

Everyone is home

Surround myself

With love

Remember this is

Where I’m from

Reset

Gratitude

Progress

I choose myself

Everyday

10:04 PM

10/26/2020

Channeling with Strangers

Spoke with a psychic

Lastnight

She reached out to me

Told me spirit wouldn’t

Let her be

Told me you

Are all around me

If I could see this energy

What would the colours be?

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Spoke with a psychic

Lastnight

She told me everything

Wasn’t alright

Hot and cold

This game gets old

Part of the story

I continue to be told

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Meaningless

&

Unfulfilled

Comes from

Her lips

Low vibes

No light

Tell me who

It is you miss?

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I understand

Life is busy

Can’t find a level stance

Unbalanced

Ungrounded

Need solitude

Need your rest

.

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I spoke to a psychic

Lastnight

She promised

Everything would be

Alright

Asked if I knew

My crown was tilted

Not firing right

I told her I can’t

Feel my heartbeat

I miss it

I can’t feel

My guard is up

I’m inside myself again

Can’t comprehend

What my world is doing

I want to feel my heart beat

Against my chest again

I never want that feeling

To go away

I need to feel myself again

I’m so far away from her

I’m trying to come back

I’m trying to connect

Keep getting lost

With people who

Are just foes

I see right through this

Karmic mess

Here I am

Documenting

What I won’t confess

Here I go

Back to the wrong show

There are no musicians here

No art to compare

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Here I am

Stardust in a suit

Staring at my hands

She said I have a

Long life to live

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All I can do is exhale

All I can do is call out

Life guide

Life line

Help me purify

This divide

Help me find balance

Inside of me

Head in the clouds

Hands searching for

The right mudra

Heart space come back to me

Heart beat come face me

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11:35 AM

10/16/2020

Where you focus———————There the energy goes

So where are you

In that head of yours

I see myself slouching down

Going deaf

Don’t want to hear your sound

Anymore

I’m going down

Just at the sight of you

I’m going down

Don’t want to be around you

My energy has been focused

On all the wrong things

Taking away from me

I get angry

Annoyed

Want to tell you to go

Just go

Where you focus

There the energy goes—

I need to go

I am looking out

There is my energy flow

Looking up

There is my frequency show

Ungrounded

Need to center

Myself

Go

Clean my glasses

Blink my eyes

A few hundred times

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Tap between my brow

Where you focus

There the energy goes —-

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3:25 PM

Flying over

the Midwest

Nothing & Everything

Of all the versions

Of you I know

Why are you so scared

To show me this one?

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Of all the You’s

I’ve met

Why is it so hard

To confess this one?

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I’m the one that

Remembers everything

Yet I’m the one

Who is kindest

To your evolution

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Didn’t even kick

You when you

Needed it

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Who is this man

Who I talk to?

Do you know

Who is you?

Is this what is

Stopping you

From joining

Ebb and flow ?

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You don’t know

Yourself?

Lonely

You confess

.

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Dive deeper

My favorite mess

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I see you looking

Inside yourself

.

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Keep going

Keep growing

When your mind

Settles down

Come show me

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Flow with me

Show me songs

I’m dying to see

Take me to

Places that are

Meant to be

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One day we will

Laugh at this age

We thought was a tease

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Laugh at the way

We treated the breeze.

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Time goes by

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I remember everything

.

I’m still here rooting

For you

I remember every song

Don’t make me wait

Too long

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I remember everything

I’m gonna sing you a song

Please start remembering

Everything

I won’t be around too long

1:01 AM

Look Up

Sometimes I sit

Up on a mountain

Top with you

High above the clouds

I laugh and stare at

The human in you

Make fun of the earthly

Things we do

Play pretend this

Isn’t happening again

Down there I’m far away

From myself right now

These weeks are kicking

My souls ass

Silencing the voice in

The back of my head

To finish out the karmic

Progression I’ve been

Laying with…

Forgetting what I promised

Myself

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I find myself on my mat again

Staring at the ceiling

Pretending I’m in

the stars again

I love this life

But sometimes I’m

too much

I struggle to stay

In line just over

Here doing my time

Trying to be kind

This is a struggle to survive

Survive mundane

Survive consistency

Can’t run even if

The music called me

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I sit up in the clouds

And stare out with you

Look at this mess

We are going through

It’s not really that bad

Not enough time

For the things I crave

But just enough time

To end business day

Everytime I leave

I want to stay away and play

I miss my things

Don’t have the time

Today to appreciate

Just stare like a museum

I swear I’ll visit again

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Today I’m on a mountain

Top with you

Today I’m nurturing

My soul

And you

She’s on the mountain

resting in your lap

Wind breezes by

Can’t stay here forever

But it’s nice to see your face

Can’t stay here forever

Let me enjoy this place

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Earth is crazy right now

This is my safe place

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Earth is busy right now

I came here to calm down

Save my space

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I’m going with the flow

Let go

Let go

Let go

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Kiss my forehead

I have to go

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10:31AM

10:26 AM

9/29/20

Wishing Well

What a perfect pit

Of forgetfulness

I was gifted

To lay my demons with

.

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I can throw anything

I want down this

Wishing well

It echos all my

Wishes and all

Of my woes

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Throwing a quarter

I hear it drop all

the way down

Throwing a memory

How far till it drowns

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I guess in the end

You are my safe place

Coming and going

I look through this space

Closing my eyes

Your the sound

In the bass

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I could stare down

This well forever

Hello

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Hello

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Echo

Echo

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What a perfect pit

Of forgetfulness

I’ve left my demons with

He has the key

only I remember

Where I went

And laid me

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I know in your chest

Where this company

Stays

I know in your brain

Where my secret

It lays

.

.

Miles apart

Wouldn’t matter

Where you are

.

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It was Proven

to me

Physical body

Isn’t all there

Is to be

I remember

Sharing frequencies

With me

I remember confiding

Daringly

I sit on my well

Spouting my tell

Stare down my well

Come echo

Come spell

I know what is

Down there

Do you care to tell?

I know what is

down there

I visit so well

.

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Hey wishing well

You’ve always been enough

Hey wishing well

Thank you so much

What would I do

If I didn’t have you

Who would I be

If it wasn’t you and me

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Here comes

another quarter

I toss it down below

Keep my secrets

I’ll come back

I’m the only one

Who can open

that door

9:51 PM

9/5/20

Be-You-Tiful You-Niverse

Well would you

Look at that

It was in us all along

This is my life

Our plane

My soul

Lessons

games

No “better than “here”

Where are we anyway?

Floating in space

Not even a base

Just rotating

Slowly fading

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Ever think of why words

Are s-p-e-l-l-e-d 🧙🏻‍♀️

Manifested one letter at a time

Pondering where thoughts

Come from when it has been

The borrowed light within

All along

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Be – you -tiful

He wrote

You-niverse she saw

What funny synchronicites

That continuously connect us all

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I feel like I broke my view

Can’t stay in one

World anymore

So many beautiful

Things flying around us

No one sees this

But scattered souls

Destined to have

Found us

.

I hold this all so close

To my chest

The only thing your holding

To your chest is a pile of cards

Dumb founded when you’ve

Gone too far

.

Oh I did it again

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Better and better

The music man plays

Clearer and clearer

The old soul sings

We tuck different things

Into our chest

I don’t have armor

It’s unconditional love

Red rover

Red rover

Won’t you come on over

Chauffeur

Me through this

Plane we are blessed

To breath

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Can’t believe it was

In us this whole time

Look at my hands

Still have youth

I suppose

Not dead

I refuse

I’ve found this

overwhelming flow

Ever flowing glow

Don’t need this

Earthly ambien again

.

Remember

Remember

It’s the only way

This will end

Remember

Remember

Learn this lesson

Again

Over and over

Let’s play pretend

We don’t know the

Definition of

Karma again

Continue away from

The meaningless

Progression

Can I

Wake up?

Or shall I lay here again ?

Come back “ play the game“

Forget again

Come back to

Karma & Epiphany

Again

Tattoo it on your wrists

So you don’t slice them again

Come back to the good & evil again

Tattoo them so he doesn’t mark your skin

Fight for yourself

Your worth the soul within

Fight for yourself

“ Your enough “

In the end.

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10:38 PM

1:37 AM

9-4-20

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