Hemi – Sync

I talk to you

A lot in

my head

Yet I know

I shouldn’t

Pick up my phone

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If I get brave enough to

Look at your name

I shut myself down

I can’t have a moment

Like that again

You don’t need

me to crack

Your skull open

And show you

The truth of

What you’ve

been hiding in

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Start your day

With a clean slate

“Helps make every day feel brand new”

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Flip a token

To see what side

Of yourself

You’ll choose today

Don’t look in the mirror

It’s easier that way

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I talk to you a lot

In my head

Something I

Don’t recommend

Admitting right now

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It comes natural

Until you want to

Talk about something

I don’t

It comes natural

Till you pull the wrong

String ; I won’t

I can’t sing

Can’t write

My throat is raw

From yelling at myself

I don’t want to visit

This side of my head

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If I asked you to

Close your eyes

And touch the

Part of your brain

That lights up

When I come to mind

I bet it would

Scare you everytime

Not just one location

I come to find

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I hope you know

I don’t feel like

Picking up my phone

My chest feels constricted

Can’t breath the way I like to

Right now thinking of you

Just a subtle heartbeat

Can’t get through the thick fog

Around you ; the pollution

Is too loud

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I see vices

False niceness

Comfort zone

Sacrifices

Happy ….

Happy life

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Being human is weird

I’m sure being a man is worse

All this pressure on your shoulders

To be a provider , believe that a better

Version of yourself is built by

Sacrificing who you are to someone else

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Dark night of the soul

Is the only way through

I promise your authentic self

Wont let you ignore this pull

If this was the end then your

Pearl Jam song would be playing loud

I don’t hear the bells ringing or

The End coming for you

But I can assure you it

Wont be me snapping my fingers

Bringing you back on cue

But I see you

Don’t worry friend

I couldn’t stop if I tried

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You come to mine

Too many times

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Comedically I picture

Your name entering

The left side of my brain

Deciphering where it should

store this lovely being

The security is weak on that side

The bouncer said your name is on the list

Every-time

I’m dancing on the right side

Spinning in circles , dancing

Pantomime

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Drifting through Oklahoma

2/8/21

9:29 am

9:44 am

10:01 am

Through the breath ——- comes the energy

Im looking for you

Plugging my ears

To hear where you are

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Closing my eyes

To see you so far

Inhale

Listen close

Exhale

I feel like a ghost

I need to sit down

Find the energy again

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Have you left

The enemy yet?

Haven’t craved yourself

Enough yet?

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I need a place for my head

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Don’t want you to

Take the best of me

Loneliness has

This tongue again

Slithering

Slithering

Constriction begins

I guess that’s what

Happens when

Your conflicted again

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Finding myself

Gets harder

Everytime

I’m getting better

At hiding

Can’t be up in

The clouds the whole time

I’ve got a life to live

Can’t always confide

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I’m searching for you

Cheyenne’s missing

Peek-A-Boo

Hidden away from

The blue

Words won’t

Come out

Too easy to

Misconstrue

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Just better to

Put my head

Down , push

On through

Shit

What did I do?

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Through the breath

Comes the energy

Again

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Through the breath

Comes the energy

My friend.

12/8/20

8:41PM

Going Home

I freed myself today

Chose myself

Like I needed to

Didn’t give notice

To the two faced fool

spreading bitterness

Wonder where everyone goes

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I freed myself today

I believe the universe

Shines down a golden ray

I took care of myself

I’ll be taken care of everyday

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Remember this feeling everyday

Listening to my body

I tried but it could never feel right

Too much bitterness

No one can stand the presence

Too much disrespect

Never want to see you again

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It’s empowering to help yourself

Even if it’s cold out I won’t stay

Where I know I can’t grow

Even if it’s cold out

I’ll face this world alone

Me myself & I

The universe by my side

Divine continue to shine

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I freed myself today

I’m going home to

My family

The corn fields

Country roads

Bonfires &

Everyone is home

Surround myself

With love

Remember this is

Where I’m from

Reset

Gratitude

Progress

I choose myself

Everyday

10:04 PM

10/26/2020

Channeling with Strangers

Spoke with a psychic

Lastnight

She reached out to me

Told me spirit wouldn’t

Let her be

Told me you

Are all around me

If I could see this energy

What would the colours be?

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Spoke with a psychic

Lastnight

She told me everything

Wasn’t alright

Hot and cold

This game gets old

Part of the story

I continue to be told

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Meaningless

&

Unfulfilled

Comes from

Her lips

Low vibes

No light

Tell me who

It is you miss?

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I understand

Life is busy

Can’t find a level stance

Unbalanced

Ungrounded

Need solitude

Need your rest

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I spoke to a psychic

Lastnight

She promised

Everything would be

Alright

Asked if I knew

My crown was tilted

Not firing right

I told her I can’t

Feel my heartbeat

I miss it

I can’t feel

My guard is up

I’m inside myself again

Can’t comprehend

What my world is doing

I want to feel my heart beat

Against my chest again

I never want that feeling

To go away

I need to feel myself again

I’m so far away from her

I’m trying to come back

I’m trying to connect

Keep getting lost

With people who

Are just foes

I see right through this

Karmic mess

Here I am

Documenting

What I won’t confess

Here I go

Back to the wrong show

There are no musicians here

No art to compare

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Here I am

Stardust in a suit

Staring at my hands

She said I have a

Long life to live

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All I can do is exhale

All I can do is call out

Life guide

Life line

Help me purify

This divide

Help me find balance

Inside of me

Head in the clouds

Hands searching for

The right mudra

Heart space come back to me

Heart beat come face me

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11:35 AM

10/16/2020

Where you focus———————There the energy goes

So where are you

In that head of yours

I see myself slouching down

Going deaf

Don’t want to hear your sound

Anymore

I’m going down

Just at the sight of you

I’m going down

Don’t want to be around you

My energy has been focused

On all the wrong things

Taking away from me

I get angry

Annoyed

Want to tell you to go

Just go

Where you focus

There the energy goes—

I need to go

I am looking out

There is my energy flow

Looking up

There is my frequency show

Ungrounded

Need to center

Myself

Go

Clean my glasses

Blink my eyes

A few hundred times

.

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Tap between my brow

Where you focus

There the energy goes —-

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3:25 PM

Flying over

the Midwest

Be-You-Tiful You-Niverse

Well would you

Look at that

It was in us all along

This is my life

Our plane

My soul

Lessons

games

No “better than “here”

Where are we anyway?

Floating in space

Not even a base

Just rotating

Slowly fading

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Ever think of why words

Are s-p-e-l-l-e-d 🧙🏻‍♀️

Manifested one letter at a time

Pondering where thoughts

Come from when it has been

The borrowed light within

All along

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Be – you -tiful

He wrote

You-niverse she saw

What funny synchronicites

That continuously connect us all

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I feel like I broke my view

Can’t stay in one

World anymore

So many beautiful

Things flying around us

No one sees this

But scattered souls

Destined to have

Found us

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I hold this all so close

To my chest

The only thing your holding

To your chest is a pile of cards

Dumb founded when you’ve

Gone too far

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Oh I did it again

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Better and better

The music man plays

Clearer and clearer

The old soul sings

We tuck different things

Into our chest

I don’t have armor

It’s unconditional love

Red rover

Red rover

Won’t you come on over

Chauffeur

Me through this

Plane we are blessed

To breath

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Can’t believe it was

In us this whole time

Look at my hands

Still have youth

I suppose

Not dead

I refuse

I’ve found this

overwhelming flow

Ever flowing glow

Don’t need this

Earthly ambien again

.

Remember

Remember

It’s the only way

This will end

Remember

Remember

Learn this lesson

Again

Over and over

Let’s play pretend

We don’t know the

Definition of

Karma again

Continue away from

The meaningless

Progression

Can I

Wake up?

Or shall I lay here again ?

Come back “ play the game“

Forget again

Come back to

Karma & Epiphany

Again

Tattoo it on your wrists

So you don’t slice them again

Come back to the good & evil again

Tattoo them so he doesn’t mark your skin

Fight for yourself

Your worth the soul within

Fight for yourself

“ Your enough “

In the end.

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10:38 PM

1:37 AM

9-4-20

11:11

Nothing in this place

Compares to you

Nothing in this space

Scares me more than you

11:10 as I write this page

11:11 as I shutter at the ways

On and on these days come on

11:11 I want you to sing me a song

Confess to me

Show less to me

I’m spinning in circles

Watch me caress me

Ever loving

Let me breath

11:11 come take me

11:11 PM

8/27/20

Can you speak Tongues?

I’d rather speak in

Pictures

Riddles

&

Rhymes

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Metaphors

You don’t care to speak

Nor see

That is me

Wrapped up in

A mystical being

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So divine

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It can get lonely here

Luckily my mind

Is here

I’m not lost this time

Luckily my chakras

Are trying to clear

I am the only one

That can help me

See clear

This time

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I’d rather speak in

Synchronicities & signs

Then feel you

Roll your eyes

Misunderstandings

Claim you everytime

Skepticism takes the magic

From your mind

Kills the kundalini

Everytime

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I am a spirit

Always ready to roam

Can’t keep me contained

I’m out on my own

You are a spirit

Lost on the phone

Can’t keep you mundane

You’re getting so cold

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Riddles

&

Rhymes

Their all sent to me

Riddles

&

Rhymes

Languages translated

To me

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Not mine ; not yours

Glossolalia

Xenoglossy

I’ll show them to you

I’ll show them to you

I’ll show them to you

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Use my advice this time

Set yourself free

It doesn’t mean you’ll

Be with me

But if you set yourself free

I will be able to breath

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I sound so dramatic

I don’t need you

I swear

I sound so dramatic

Run your fingers

Through my hair

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I’d rather speak to God

Than wait around for you

I’d rather speak to God

He is making me in tune

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Can you speaks tongues ?

I’d really like to see

If you speak tongues

Would it set your soul free?

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Are you strong enough

On your own

Looking down at your phone

Thinking when you call me soon

Faking , hide your tone

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There is a bind here

Isn’t it clear?

A hermit draws near

While an emperor

Shows fear

Oh dear

Oh dear

Oh dear

Just a year

Just a year

Just a year

8:21 PM

8:39 PM

8/9/20

Wounded Healer

Do you help yourself

By helping others?

Do you carry others

With you like it

Might be your

Own pain ?

Wounded healer

Come to play

A wounded healer

Shift the world

From decay

I see the light in you

Sometimes neglect

The poison that

Influences you

I am a light carrier

The flashlight in the dark

If your scared

Come from afar

The door will open

As soon as you step on

The porch

The door will open

I’ll help you

light this torch

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I am wounded

Never claimed to be

Full

I admit I am whole

But the divine runs

Through me

I except my place in this

Divinity

I can’t be healed

Need to heal everyone else

I can be healed

I can only save myself

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I am whoever you

Need me to be

Won’t judge you

That’s not my way

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I am your flashlight

Turn me on

Hold me close

I won’t go too far

I’ll keep you safe

Out of your safe space

I’ll keep you safe

I’m your saving grace

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I don’t mind being broken

Gold fills my cracks

I don’t mind

I’m outspoken

It’s the skies

That are rolling

Through my mind

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I am a wounded healer

God sends you all to me

I am a wounded healer

Floating across an

endless sea

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Love flows

Unconditional

But I won’t forget myself

Love goes

Unconditional

I won’t forget myself

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2:44 PM

8/9/20

I was thinking 🌗

Hey

I was thinking

Of leaving you

Can’t do it anymore

I had so much fun

With you lastnight

But I saw who you were

Can’t look past these

Blocks you choose

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Hey

I was thinking

Of leaving you

Makes me sad

Thought we were close

.

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I had so much

fun with you

But I can’t stand

What you choose

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My friend

My friend

I knew it would end

My friend

My friend

Don’t need you

Won’t bend

My friend

My friend

Thank you for

This time

We’ve had

It’s only been

Two years

And I can’t count

All the ways

I’ve processed

Your tears

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It’s so hard

To be friends

With me

I’ll give and I’ll give

Until I confess

That you just take

It’s not your intention

But no boundaries

shine a ray

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My energy is low

When I am in

Your presence

My friend

I was there for you

I watched you

Process 20 years

Of grief through me

I let you do it

So effortlessly

I’ll ground your pain

It’s what I usually do

I see you now

You don’t need me

No clue

My friend

My friend

I am growing away

My friend

My friend

Won’t come back

One day

I’ve done this

Before

Scattered friends

Near and far

I am so empty when

You take from me

All of you

Never replace my energy

Dear lord

Dear lord

Will I ever find a friend

Who sends back

Their energy from within

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I know I’ve felt it before

I was 19 and so very low

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Hey

I was thinking

About leaving you

Didn’t like the conversation

You made me sit through

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Hey

I think I’m gonna leave you

Let time run it’s course

Let God do his chores

Removing the people

Who don’t help me grow

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So many • chords •

Stuck to me

Need to cut them

Before I can’t breath

Let you feel

Your disease

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I wish I felt sorry

For feeling this way

But Hey I love you

In every single way

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I let go

Acknowledge the truth

Send my pain to the

Ground below

Lift my head up

It’s the end of the show

Hey

I’m leaving you today.

1:33 PM

2:12 PM

8/9/20

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