Untitled Flow

If you could

Wake up everyday

For you

Tell me

What would you do ?

.

I know you wouldn’t

Go to work

That place isn’t

Fun to lurk

.

So tell me

What would you do

To actually support you?

Heaven knows

You haven’t been

Seeing yourself

Through

.

Have you forgotten

Your passion along the way

Mundane , condemned

To the Sheeples way

.

I’m sure it pains

You to say

The artist are right

We’ve lost our way

We’re the last connection

Before the dark decays

The light

.

I continue to write

Like I have not one reader

I continue to write

Because I finally

Found what feeds her

.

One day I woke up

It was a Sunday

I believe

.

I’m still in shock

.

The things I’d done to me

.

I ran around with

my cape on

saving methadone

And heroine

.

Sad helpless

Vagabonds

Looking for someone

To see them

Give them a home

.

Praying God

Would guide me through

All the people who said

I had zero attachment to you

.

You believe the Devil

Was in me and that I

Believe is true

.

You were scared for me

You didn’t realize

You fucking left me too

.

I sat in front of him

And asked why he is

So hated from people

Who act just like you

.

He began to tell me

That this world is Jaded

.

Won’t look at themselves

Through

So they say I did it

Won’t confess their

Self created hell

So I must’ve come

To finish it

.

They wanted the world

So I asked for their soul

If they didn’t want to take

Care of it then my job is

To steal the role

.

It’s a balance you see

Yin and Yang Biblically

.

.

I wonder what it would

Be like having

Everyone think

They know you ?

.

Looking at your sins

And out bursts

Like

“Oh Ofcourse that’s you”

.

I understand why poison

Is so easily passed a long

.

I really try to lessen

the blow

By sending you

a song

.

I’m tired of being chastised

For finding the girl I

Almost killed

.

I’m tired of giving my

Love to those who

Think strings have to

Be filled

.

I’m tired of being looked

At because I will not be

What you will

.

I cannot walk your direction

This feels too much a foe

Just know that I love you

But I really do have to go

.

I decided today

To wake up for myself

No one but God and

Cheyenne herself

.

Too many peaky eyes

Think that’s selfish

I hear …

“Didn’t you get married “

They say

“You’re one now!”

They say

WIFE

They HAVE to

prove to me

.

Can’t be a

friend in you

I refuse to see

Lost my way

.

I look at them in silence

And know they just

Need me to pray

.

Stuck in Karma

An Epiphany on the way

.

Forgive them Lord

They love your job

So easy to hide their

Sin in me & walk away

.

I walk around

Sinning like its free

.

I say fuck

Shit

Damn

And tell you

ThIs Is mE

.

You are not realizing

That your soul can

Also be damned

Without judging me

.

Open your bible

I’ll read it with you

Not one version

But the million

We’ve drew

.

I will find the truth

Hidden in you

You can’t hide from me

God won’t let you

.

I am not righteous

I prefer to walk on the

Line

I’ll never pass a sinner

And think that they are

Not mine

We are all connected

How can you be so blind

.

Caught up in a world

That all ya’ll know

Isn’t FINE

.

So close your eyes

And listen to the voice

That is so small

In that head

It’s the Angel in you

Calling saying please

Face ME before I’m dead

.

They can’t stay forever

If you choose to

Write them off

.

If you chose to read

This far have you

Chosen yourself

At all?

.

Or are you reading

This away from them

And hiding from yourself

The light is coming

I want you here

.

Don’t let the darkness

Win

.

and if you do

It’s not my fault

You’ve rotten

From within

.

Just know

When you fall

.

I’ll dive down

.

Crawl

.

You really

.

Aren’t that tall

.

No noose is fun

Especially when

The deed is done

.

You’ll regret it

I promise

You’ll miss everyone

Ask Bennington

Cornell

They know

But the choice was

In the call

.

if you choose your noose

Then I will hang with you

.

Loose

.

I’ll sit beside

with

Blood shot eyes

And hang until

You choose

.

Unbind yourself

Combine yourself

Divinity is within you

.

Chastise yourself?

Why ? God is that

The day he Judges you

.

So picture it

Your judgement day

Do you think you are

So clean?

I promise you

My sin is real

But it won’t pop

Up on your screen

.

You can’t pass

The bucket

And just say

Fuck it

Like the energy

Isn’t real

.

You condemn

Yourself to the

devils den

And think you

Can live through

My sin

.

Remember I’ve been

Sending love this

Whole damn time

.

You’ve been hearing

Steering, glaring

Blind, Telling lies

Fucking my eyes

Kindly simply

Squeezing limes

.

I can wipe it away

It is not mase

But

.

That is just not nice

.

Yet

here I am

Loving all of you

.

Asking and wondering

Do you actually love you too?

.

Can you show up

For yourself

When life just isn’t fair ?

.

Control your temper

When you found

Another cross to bear?

.

Call me text me

You aren’t alone

This life we live

Can be a bore

.

Don’t close the door

Get up from the floor

You can’t do this alone

.

I need a little

Help from my friends

Can’t do this on

My own

But I refuse to

Have the vampires

Come and pretend

We are friends

Fuck off

Go home

.

I SEE YOU foe

.

So let me go

You are not

Kind to me

Can’t help

Me grow

So watch

me

Flow

.

Away

Away

Away

From

You

.

Take care

Dear friends

I have to go

.

.

.

.

.

Don’t forget.

.

.

.

I love you.

.

.

.

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